November is National Novel Writing Month and for me it was serendipitous! I’ve been standing at a “Fork in the road” for a few days now, contemplating the path to take and when I followed certain crumbs, so to speak it lead me to a writing platform, which lead me to National Novel Writing Month, which lead me right here….in this moment, where I took the path of beginning a new novel. Sitting this morning watching as the sun began to rise over the horizon, sipping my coffee, I had this feeling again that I have had over the past few days in the pit of my stomach. You know when you have an idea and it could be a prosperous one but it’s not really your passion or something that you really enjoy, but rather one you know could bring a stream of income in. It’s that feeling of not being in your integrity to what your soul knows is true for you. We often don’t listen to this at times as there are so many “what-ifs” that we take the path that may bring the most money in.
Words are crucial in “Every” aspect of our lives and business. Words can lift up, inspire, encourage, support or words can create anxiety, stress, pain, hurt, sadness. I have talked so much about all the books that I have in my head, and all the stories that I want to write. I’ve tried to bring people together for storytelling and community because it all boils down to Words and stories. So, I have decided to start crafting my story and as I’ve told clients of mine, a book can be written in a matter of hours to months if you just start from the beginning and begin to craft your story, begin to look within yourself to feel what your message is that you want to bring to the world, to a certain population and a certain age group. Words can be healing as we can use words to express what it is that we are feeling and tell how we feel, they can also help us to forgive, to move past and move forward and truthfully, I have always been one to always try to live fully in this moment right now but I have so many words that come into my mind that give me ideas that I begin to put into action, that it keeps me in movement and sometimes, that’s not the greatest place to be as you may not see the path that you want to take.
I usually never have trouble coming up with something to say or words to speak and this morning as I sat and sipped coffee watching that sun rise, I began to have flashbacks of my past. Days of being a Child Support Counselor/Crisis Counselor and the days I rode with the R.C.M.P as a Victim Services Advocate and my very first call. A triple homicide. As I sat in the back of a police cruiser with the Mother/Grandmother of the Victims who were just both shot and killed, I listened to her story. The silence grew in my head…..the voices began to disappear….I had no words in that moment. In that moment of looking out over the scene and listening to the sobs of this woman who had just lost her daughter and grandson…..I felt like I disappeared. Disappeared into sadness and despair of humanity. For the first time, I couldn’t find the words much less find my voice to even make a sound.
I can remember wanting to comfort her so much but feeling that nothing in this moment and time could come close to giving her anything remotely close to comfort at this time. In that moment I knew that I wanted to share my messages and my stories with the world. In fact, there were many more moments like this that I wanted to share. I realized I had some notion in my head that told me that writing was meant for when I was older, retired maybe and had the time to write my stories. Until today, until being lead to the platform then to the novel writing month and to a button that i push that says “50, 000 words.” So, I thought to myself” No way am I going to wait, where I got this notion that I can’t start writing is beyond me, but today, is the day that I will begin to get my stories out there to inspire, support, encourage and hopeful, to facilitate change and growth for the better. Yes, indeed, words are the bridge to to creating the future and changing the past. Use them wisely! Your voice matters!